Saturday, May 02, 2009, 5/02/2009 09:52:00 PM
2 may 2009,
i told how i felt towards james today.
i've had been pondering about this issue for days and it had been bugging me since then..
i told him not to waste any more time on me and find someone who is worth all his love,care and concern.i really hope that he understands that me and him is totally impossible.too many things had happened to me and the people beside me these few days.i'm like breaking down sooner or later.after i told james all the mean things,i felt very bad and tears just cant stop but flowing down.i felt much better after crying out loud but i just cried,literally..i felt very sorry but i had to make it clear to him.i know how much it will hurt when a person rebutt you back,it hurts me too by saying all these mean things to him,
i had been damn emotional this few days,
i would tear even when im listening to songs.
foolish?dumb?
maybe both..
after being damn emotional,went amk central for a walk to sort out my thoughts..
was smsing sam,thanks for consoling me ya,you've been a great friend:)
then went to library for a while,cos i'll be going there tmr again with bimbi and bimbo:)
there is far too much things for me to handle that im breaking down sooner or later,sometimes,i wish that there will be someone just for me to lean onto.
